Eventful Fridayy

im too lazy to write about it now, check back later.

Blog on it

"We could be more productive if we tried...
... We could all be happier if we tried
Everyone could probaly be more effective if they tried...
...I'd actually care more if everyone else gave a shit"

Whateverrrrr!

I'm not mad or upset I'm just really bothered. Im blessed to be on a dance team and such but seriously, SERIOUSLY its getting to be annoying. I know I am giving my time to do it so I can stop ANYTIME I want. I WANT to be on this team, but it seems like I'm putting in so much of my time and I'm getting completely nothing out of it but to perform for people. THATS ALL. but ughh..

Were supposed to be at practice at @ 10 and people stumble in at friggn 12 and 1. wtfuhhh Im not even frigg'n filipino and Im even here on time. wtfuhh is up with that. Oh wow you think your so good and so superior in dance you dont need to show up on time. If your just sooo good, get the hell of this dance team and go onto something else since your so big, and bad. I understand there are other comnmitments and things but I had other things to do and I switched them around so I can be here; YOU could have done the same as well, I want our show to look good if you dont then screw you!

But I dunno, effn stuff like that really bothers me, yeahhh. i dunno. I had to blog on it. but whatever, the year is almost over, and on to other dance stuff. Hopefully dance stuff that doesnt carry as much crap around as this one. ughhh, ill get over it.

So as I am sitting here waiting to do something....

Its really annoying how much drama is around here in college. Not that I really care-ish but still its around. Shouldn't that be left at highschool? We are NOT children anymore. Well let me rephrase that.. Some of us are not children.

I always ask myself sometimes, is there anywhere where I can just go and just frigg'n dance. And then I have to come back into reality that there is really no where where I can just go and dance where there is no competition, drama, or bullcrap around. Dancing isnt just fun anymore. Theres always some side crap you have to deal with. When I dance I just want to be free and do whatever; but when theres crap like drama in the mix it kinda makes it hard to just have fun. Thats why I just distance myself and live in my own world, caus in my world is happy and I don't have to deal with that outside crap.

I love my life now and all the things that have happened to me but sometimes I just think man all the baggage that comes with things, is it worth it?

Chris you hella lamee!

gdsmckb: shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up

haha. hes soo lame for typing all of that! [[LOSER.COM ]]

Intuition Interlude? Wtheckkk!

Today was whateverrr! PCN practice at 10, woke up at 8 ish shower clothes food and out. Slow driving today, caus I was madd tired, my body hurts all over! UGHH my back. Haha but yeah stopped at 7-11 to get a slurpie yumm blue raspberry then off to find parking on 2nd floor. Yeahh park, get stuff then walk over to under the bridge. Yaddah yaddah [Im not putting in filler words] If you were there you know what happens, if you weren’t oh well.
Bwahh, so yeahh practice was over at like 5,6ish I don’t remember. But yeahh left fullerton, chilled at my place for a bit, then headed to West Cov for a bit to visit my sister.
THANK YOU LOLA FOR SINGING TO ME, & MAKING ME LAUGH SO HARD [:
Haha yeah stayed at sis’s house for a bit, just catching up and stuff. OHH BTW Martin I hope you feel better [: yeahh I miss you sister, and hopefully coconut bay on saturdayy!!
Yeahh then I left, caus it was dinner time, and it was getting late and I was kinda-ish tired.- but yeah now Im home.
AGENDA FOR TONIGHT : shower & homework.
But yeahh, I think Im having workshop lag. I haven’t been to a dance wkshop or class in foreverrr. I miss it. ]: Im sad. Poop. But yeahh I wanna learn some new stuff, maybe next week?
CONGRADULATIONS CHRIS FOR GATTING AN A AND GETTING EMBARASSED IN CLASS! haha
But, tomorrow I won’t be such a lame face, and I dunno do something I guess. Gahh why am I so lame sometimes ?

soo today shouldnt be too tiring

TDL
-PCN practice @ 10
-Hang Out w/ Martin & Irene
-Home to Sleep
-D4W

quote...
Don't push your relationship with a person too hard, if its meant to be then it will happen.

ps. happy April fools dayy; not that I really care about it anymore caus that was sooo Highschool! right?!

gah!

^I met his cuttie cousin at UCR. haha

thankk you power 106 for keeping

me

up on the drive home last night,

oh and Jesus of course!

My brain thinks, and makes my fingers do the typing.

So I sit here thinking…..

Where am I going to be next year? Will I still be with bio chem, or will I switch over to graphic design; and be a committed individual to that line of focus?

What about dance, am I going to move forward and get better; or will I still be as mediocre as I have been for the past couple of months?

Am I ever going to be comfortable, when my comfort zone is getting to be so uncomfortable?

Many things to think about and it seems that time is running out, even though time, it’s leisurely.